What will happen.

If i keep screaming 'save me' on repeat.

HAHA J.S FTW

V says:

welcome

hahaha

how come you want her number?

JingSiang says:

kinky time LOL

V says:

OMG HAHHAHA

JingSiang says:

nah kidding only...

V says:

THAT BE CLASSSIC !!!!!!!

Topshop + Paris

how can i not be in love

Worth towards another

you know most everything i know most nothing.

basically. you win right.

BreadandButtergotogether

BECAUSE.

i cannot be cold.

and

i cannot be nice or warm or kind.

because it takes too much acting out from me.

what am i to do when you're tugging on my heartstrings?

bastard.

Slowly

Figuring out.

Melting.

Wanting. Wishing.

-

get me out here,

because there's nothing left for me.

(R)

I'm awesome

helpless

You don't.

Filled up with emotions.
But yet, feeling empty because of.

Oxymoron.

I see many things that you don't.

I want to go out and party or whatever it is that i can do.

i thought of losing myself,

all my worth.

just for a little _, and now i see how stupid i was.

Or perhaps, am?

Hi

Love is not conditional

All i want to do, is grow old with you.

I know it'll happen.

But can i just say, i'm tired of waiting and i'd like to know how it feels.

Purest of.

Eyes can deceive,

words can hide truths,

expressions disguise.

But you can't lie to yourself.

For your heart knows exactly everything.

And your brain feels almost everything.

So, what're you going to do?

Bff's

Without you, there is no me.

Assured

Assurance goes far.

Reassurance doubles up the distance.

So, thank you. butter

Colour you colouring me colouring you

And only because this is awesomely awesome and megaly mega classic....

presenting...

GAYBRIEL AVATAR SMALL EYES TAY

win

Because through Christ , i can.

Because my identity is through God.

I am worthy.

I am beautiful.

I am loved.

Yes you can bring me down, you can affect me.

But honestly, do you think i'll let you win the battle?

For everytime you bring me down,

through God i stand right back up.

Through my strength, and His strength, the devil won't win.

take it or leave it.

because i don't understand why you affect me so much, and you don't even know.

Hence, why should i base my emotions on your actions?

I shall not, and i shall overlook.

P

Just evaporate me of the surface of this earth.

Because i need recognition beyond similarity.

heart to ashes - inevitable.

because when it all boils down,

regardless of the amount of time,

holding a shorter time still gets you as closer.

that's it.

i'm done.

Refrain

Because it'll only kill our friendship.

But obviously people top my spot.

But it's because of _ that leads to me going _.

I don't want to hate you.

Double U x 2

wen ar, mei you ni wo hui si.

Ni shi wo fei chang fei chang fei chang chao hao de zui hao de chao hao peng you.

ai ni

Just leave me be.

If anything, how can i be nice to you?

How can i shower you with love and be as i used to?

With everything that you're doing.

You've changed. And i'm broken.

And.

You don't even know.

It's like i've plunged rock bottom on your list,

with no ways of redemption.

Camp Transfomers 2009 - A New Divide.

This year, youth camp was amazing.

I thank God for Kengyee, Weiwen, Ashley, Filbert, Jingsiang, Longhui and Kalis. Alot.

Filbert though i know you won't see this,

sorry + thanks + sorry + sorry + you're my bestest buddy + 3 years will not stop at 3 years +

"eh hi sexy boy" .

God was definitely there.

I've never been someone to really feel His presence before,

and yet this time, i did. I really really did.

Which leads to my prayer:

I pray that i'll be able to be more sensitive to the Holy Spirit, Amen!

And i think Kengyee really did AWESOME as a team leader.

Filbert too. JingSiang too. Sandy too.

Anyway, i think i have a MASSIVE compilation of unglam shots from this camp.

Either way, unglam or not, take it or leave it :)

I can't wait to see all of my church homies again.
Can't. Wait.

It feels weird without them around.

Now i can truly see where my heart lies.

Not upon money, but upon God and my friends.

Thank You, Lord.

:)

CHURCH CAMP

CHURCH CAMP

CHURCH CAMP

CHURCH CAMP

CHURCH CAMP

CHURCH CAMP

bye

Friendziez

Thanks Vickie, it's gorgus! (K)

Unhealthy

Fat like crazy so kill me.

Shoes = #1

Painting my heart red

I'm craving for Royce chocolate, damn it.

Ashley's today, helped her to set up her christmas tree.

Prettty much awesome, because it was the fastest christmas tree i set up.

Like, the perfect christmas tree for lazy people.

So today i went for a job interview with Peijia and Boey,

for Muji.

Sucked! The interviewer was like, fierce.

Gross-shit.

Anyhoo, i have another interview this Thursday, yay me.

Truly, madly, deeply.

Are you serious.

When together, my heart is home.

Time to lose weight.

But laziness just consumes me.

Chews me whole, and doesn't spit me out.

-

Steadily, breathing.

-

To YF, to Orchard, to under the block.

Played silly games with the craziest people.

Lawrence was shingz double max core and slowwwwwwwww.

Like he'll ever see this. Hence. LAWRENCE YOU SLOWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW .

Jozyiah was.... a complete irritant and bulbasaur.

Played 'I have never' and omg Josiah's gay, fo shizzle.

-

'Transformers, a new divide.'

Youth camp's coming! Can't wait.

-

ANDDDDD bye

Zit bitch!

Face oiling up like crazy recently.

Why oh why oh why oh why oh sigh why die .

Shizzle happening tomorrow.

Ben is back and i'm happy because i get to tease that cheeky human of a friend yay.

Wolf + lionz ftw

A for Apple.

An apple, 3 quarters rotten.

Why would people still want to eat it?

Sorry i don't see what you see.

Colourblind

Woah, everything is tinted yellow.

And it's not my eyes, it's the sky.

Amazing.

The song 'Sex On Fire' by Kings Of Leon has been on my mind.

Rather stuck.

Hmm.

Youuuuuuuuuuuuuuu ~

Your sex is on fireeeeeeeee ~

See what i mean.

Harmonising to that song is fun shit.

Hey Vickie maybe we could sing this song la la la la la .

Hahaha, maybe :)

I'm craving for LJS so i texted my sister this.

'Can you help me buy ljs? i will love you forever'

That said, i already do love her, forever.

But she is being 'defiant' and she doesnt even want to reply me :(

She's denying me and my cravings :(

OKAY 15 MORE MINUTES OTHERWISE

I OWNSELF GO J8 BUY LIAO

Sorry, so kill me.

A month ago, she was his.

Now, she's yours.

You don't even know her for a long time yet.

A month ago, she loved him.

And now, she loves you?

With all that you speak of love,

i mock at it.

Mummy

我会饮水思源

Don't go breaking my heart

Sorry, but i do feel shitty at times.

-

HELLO BEN I MISS YOU :(

-

When all else crumbles, and all else fades,

what am i to do?

Because the only one that'll save me is God,

for the rest simply won't bother.

And i'm so far from You Lord.

-

I don't want to always rely on a church camp just to feel Your presence in abundance.

I want that, and more, forever and always. Anytime.

How much yearning and desperation must one go through, just to realise how important You are?

*slaps self

for Your God is bigger then everything; all things.

He will prevail in every situation, problem, season.

Through all your own seasons, dry or overflowing, He never lets go of you.

So how should it be, that you let go of Him?

Only diamond cuts diamond

I know so.

Everything will be alright.

I want to fix my body clock.

Because sleeping after 4 and waking up when the entire morning is gone,

is not fun at all.

Goodnight!

Gamepiece

What do i do now?

For this just feels like a sick, sick, game.

I do not want to struggle for perfection.

alwayS you

I can't help but to wonder,

what we'll have when we're not pretending.

Not possible

This past week has been crazy and hectic.

From prom to chalets to Benjamin's birthday to majorly depriving sleep.

Happy belated Benj! :) (L)

I'm worn out. Abit.

You didn't bring me out here to drown

“I myself am made entirely of flaws, stitched together with good intentions.”
— Augusten Burroughs

If i see you, everything will be alright.

Content.

Height

GRAD NIGHT BABY,

here. we. go!

Glad

Because, i truly am fine.

Yes, though i'll be affected by what people say,
it just fades away within a minute. (fo' real)

Yes, i still doubt myself. But then again.
I'll be fine in a short period of time.

Usually... i'll be hanging on to the situation for a long time.

Thank You God. For letting me see what i should have a long time ago.
Better late then never.
-

My mom and tenant were saying that my grad night get-up looks office-ish.
Because i have a blazer.
I can't pull off boyfriend blazers like those girls on lookbook.
But... it's okay! :)

And i'm totally loving, loving, loving, loving the new shoes i bought!
Heels + wedges woop woop!

My hair's still cranky, but. Hahah i don't care.
And, i truly need my instax back from Kyla! Reply me quick i want to bring my polaroid to prom.


Good days, for real.

Bad

Everything.
-


Going to straighten my hair now.
Spoil the curls, then i'll perm my hair myself.
Oh hot damn, i can do a much better job.
I should be a hairstylist .

Worst.

12 minutes in, and i'm already hating today.
Like, f hating it.

No life

Bored like crazy.
I want to go jogging but there's lightning and all that jazz.

Oh, and i'm hungry.
Sickening.

Sigh, want to jog tomorrow.

Church has some plans lined up.

Chalet, there's a chalet with the homies. Well some of them are.

My birthday, i still haven't decided where to go and eat.
Brr.

I mean...

I'm trying not to be, pushy.
But i'm worried.

Or wait till i'm gone

I'm no where near photogenic, or 'videogenic' if there's such a word.
I'm not ideally slim or skinny.
I'm not anyone's mindset of pretty.
I don't have a decent voice.
I'm a 'jack of all trades, but master of none'.
I don't have Snow White's complexion.

But for once, i'm feeling perfectly fine with myself.
And i hope this stays.

Selfless

To put others before me.
For what humans are - selfish,
is what i don't want to be,
anymore.

Because i was selfish,
i screwed my life up with my own bare hands.
Why do people wait for the most tragic consequences before waking up?

feeling like catnip.

Which apparently makes no sense?!
SHABOOYAW!

Okay so i'm just wearing a dress from Cotton On and a blazer and heels and i'm gonna look.
Like... catnip on Graduation Night, but it's okay.
I've got no one that i want to impress there.
As long as i'm happy with the way i look ya'll bitchez can drop dead and shut up :)

Vickie, when can i go to your house?
For girly day!
Ho ho haw.

Is there something on tomorrow?
There is something on tomorrow right?
I feel like there's something, but i don't know what.
Hmm.
Somebady koll nine v'one v'one (insert indian akcent) ((i'm not racist))

Okay so i've realised most every post now contains a photo of me or something.
Sorry i like to take phortoz of me face.
Hmm, call me camwhore call me zilian whatevz i'm a happy girl.

I'm so hungry.
Serious. SOMEBADY KOLL NINE V'ONE V'ONE.
OR MAC DELIVERY OMGZ

Please, let it work.

"Lembranca do senhor do bonfim da bahia"

4eva ftw

Ashley Stymest + Cole Mohr = the bombz, ftw, boomz

It's not up to the world

"My way or the highway"

I'm glad you've got better people.

Everyone's hair looks so soft and silky and awesomely perfect in pictures.
Mine looks shitty.

I WILL SPAM CONDITIONER TOMORROW THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
Now, i will perm my hair (i have to master the art) and go sleep.
Or... continue using the laptop.

Who knows.

Outkast

They say absence makes the heart grow fonder.
I say, bullshit.

For what you're worth,
treasure it.
When others don't see it,
leave them be.

My dad's a Leo, y'know?

Ahbeng have dragon lah, koi fish lah, i got lion .

God made lions, in us too.

Me: So, Hair, how do you like the perm?

Hair: Though it is very painful and hot to be curly because of the curling thing, we're not straight anymore!

Me: Right... so you like it?

Hair: Yes, we're gays!

Me: Uh huh...

Hair: Teehee gay gay gay rainbow pride.

How is it so

Sky = airplane = travelling = fun = safe?

Where art thou?

Knowing is safe.

Things to remember

1) Half smile
2) Back
3) Eyes
4) Voice
5) Outburst of semi-silent laughter
6) Jaw line
7) Red
8) Kindness
9) Loyalty
10) Nonchalance

11) So much more.

F'yeah!

And because i finally cared for myself,
i'm breathing.

Now, peace and silence and alot of space for a few days would be lovely.