As glorious as the start of the year is always supposed to be,
I feel that 2011 started on an average note.
I'm sensing regrets, could-have-been's, friendships lost and time passing by.
Then again i thank God i haven't hit anywhere close to rock bottom in terms of my emotions.
Dwelling in negativity is the last thing i want to do these days.
I remember being young, being silly, being foolish, being naive.
Time wasted, emotions played, tears, false laughter and what nots.
And now i am facing being older, being responsible, being understanding, being a daughter.
Of course i fear, who wouldn't.
The main thing is how i handle that fear, no?
What my future will be like, that is my main fear for now.
Irrational? A bit, but simply human; simply normal.
God has everything planned so i should just do best i can, and then watch along and marvel at His work.
My studies, career, family.
Imagination alone is one thing, reality is another.
I'm losing touch of myself; who i am.
I need guidance.
Pathways.
I need God.
More and more and more of God, always.
