Clearer

God please give me an answer.

Please.

Happiness Doesn't Plateau

Everyday You show me new things,

new revelations You bring.

Living by Your mercy and grace,

everyday renewed.

Your love for me is never ending,

never failing and true.

I won't forget the way You love me,

and because of You i know, happiness doesn't plateau.

With God, happiness doesn't plateau.

God i want to love You more and more each day.

I want to fully be in awe of You, captivated, awestruck.

I know You love me, and i want to put You in the center of my life.

Let my life revolve around You.

Change me, guide me, show me, lead me.

I don't know how to go on

I need motivation.

I need help.

I need strength.

I need God.

Current goals:

- Minus sarcasm

- Minus being mean (especially to TW and Gayb)

- Don't procrastinate

- Don't be lazy

- Plan time and manage time well

- Maximise time to fullest

Im the worst person you can meet.

Scary.

Not easy

Trying so hard to do something.

To put in effort.

But im not doing anything.

Im not putting in effort.

How do i call this trying?

How dare i call this trying?

Going to school is similar to beating myself up everyday.

Negative, painful.

I can have so much more than this.

I just need God.

For strength, for motivation, for love, for determination, for discipline, for eagerness.

For inexplicable significance in everything i do.

202: Jie

Y'know how harsh i am towards you,

because i love you and i don't want to see you at such a point,

whereby i know you could do so much better because you are capable of.

Love you Jie,

Mei.

201

You can't just go around saying what you like.

Protect.

Help not let crumble.