Grounded

Happy 2011.

As glorious as the start of the year is always supposed to be,

I feel that 2011 started on an average note.

I'm sensing regrets, could-have-been's, friendships lost and time passing by.

Then again i thank God i haven't hit anywhere close to rock bottom in terms of my emotions.

Dwelling in negativity is the last thing i want to do these days.

I remember being young, being silly, being foolish, being naive.

Time wasted, emotions played, tears, false laughter and what nots.

And now i am facing being older, being responsible, being understanding, being a daughter.

Of course i fear, who wouldn't.

The main thing is how i handle that fear, no?

What my future will be like, that is my main fear for now.

Irrational? A bit, but simply human; simply normal.

God has everything planned so i should just do best i can, and then watch along and marvel at His work.

My studies, career, family.

Imagination alone is one thing, reality is another.

I'm losing touch of myself; who i am.

I need guidance.

Pathways.

I need God.

More and more and more of God, always.